out on your corner in the pouring rain -- joel

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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I've had that song on repeat for like, an hour.. And It's depressing.. I mean, the song in general is since it's about some girl being abused or whatever (or at least the film clip is?).. but anyway.. I dunno... The guy singing it- he loved her. Like really loves her. I want that. My boyfriend wouldn't stand out on my curb in the rain... there is no way. Guys don't think they need to work very hard for me, K.T. And maybe they don't... Everyone just thinks I'm a slut anyway...

Is it so bad that I want to be loved like this song?

... I dunno. I'm sorry. I'm in a mood.. I got into a fight with my dad on the phone today and now I feel like crap...

... How are you?

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[mel4]

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bee, you get some of the funniest ideas into your head.
standing out on the curb isn't so great. i mean, wouldn't you rather him be inside, with you? i can't imagine his standing in the rain would somehow bring you immense comfort. if i was your boyfriend, i'd never let your smile break to begin with.
...but that's just me, of course. i do really like the song, though.
why wouldn't he? if you want it, he should be leaping off of his bum to do it. you deserve a little tender care after what you've been through.

and as for guys not having to work hard, that's bull. only the best are good enough for you, bee.

anything i have to say can wait. what did you and your father talk about? sometimes it helps to get another's perspective. if you're comfortable with sharing, that is. you know i'm only here for you.

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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it's not that i want him to stand outside getting wet. it's that he should be willing to do that for me. it's like saying "you are worth me getting a really bad flu so ima just stand here in the rain for you"... you know? like, if a guy would do anything for you, then he must like, really love you.. I dunno, maybe my views on love are messed up... I don't exactly have the best role models..

Aww, KT. you would be like, the sweetest boyfriend ever. i'm going to be totes jealous when you start dating some amazing girl and don't have time to IM or email me anymore. I may even cry (;

.. arg. sigh. he wanted me to go out to dinner with him and.. that woman. so I told him sorry, but I don't like dogs at my dinner table and he tried to punish me.. and i told him if he wanted to be my father he'd have to come home..

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[mel4]

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i see what you mean, but it seems so basic. if he's your boyfriend, of course he should care for you that much. if he doesn't, then he doesn't deserve the title.
well, i mean, so long as you're willing to do the same for him. that'd be a little different, i suppose.
your views on love are not skewed, bee. you just haven't found the guy to fit your bill yet. he's out there, i promise. don't get cynical on me, okay? i don't know what i'd do if you were ever truly defeated. it'd sort of be like a very strong, very wonderful sun burning out.

haha, i doubt you'll ever have to worry about that. the girl i like doesn't even know my name. besides, if being with some girl meant me leaving you, i'd never be able to do it. so i guess you'll just have to live with me.

i'm sorry, bee. i know it must be hard for you to have to get that from him when he's the one that made things so hard. i don't know if calling his lady a dog will help your cause though. be the adult he can't be. don't let him get to you.
and if he ever so much as lays a hand on you, call the police. he hurts you mentally enough, you don't need bruises on your pretty face. at least, i assume it's pretty. you're not secretly some kind of ogre, are you? if so, my dreams are trashed, beeautiful.

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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stop that, right now. you are being way too nice to my and it's making me want to cry. so just shh. you're an amazing person, KT. I kinda dont freaken deserve you. seriously, why do you waste your time? go! go find someone who's actually as good a person as you seem to think i am.

....onlynotreally.. because.. i think i'd die a little if you stopped talking to me.

i know calling her a dog was immature and crap.. but in the moment it was satisfying?

trust me, he wouldn't dare touch me. he'd actually have to be around to do that anyway.

fghfgj shh. you just want to make me blush to get into my internet pants, tsk tsk, you perv

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[mel4]

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bee, if speaking to you is wrong, i don't want to be right. (yes, i have been listening to millie jackson all afternoon. what of it?)

something tells me you'd be just fine with out me. it's me that would flounder with out you. i doubt anyone has ever been as good to me as you have been.

talking about myself makes me feel like one of those guys who sit in their basement, writing to young women all day while eating loads of candy and progressively growing a horribly patchy bread.
of course, i'm not. i usually sit on my patio when i type on the computer.

'dog' might not have been the word i'd have used, but if it made you feel better, we'll let it slide. next time, call here 'madam'. in french, it's a polite term that doubles as a sort of rude term. basically, she'd think you're being civil when you're really calling her the owner of a whorehouse.

i figured he wouldn't, but i don't like the thought, so i wanted to make sure i said my piece. i may not be able to stand guard for you in person, so humor me and just pretend like my overbearingness is comforting and not annoying, okay beeautiful?

don't you mean internet leggings? i believe you told me once you enjoy wearing leggings as pants. or was it tights? we men don't remember this kind of thing.
haha, but really, bee, i don't.
you deserve only the best. i don't really meet those requirements.

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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heres an idea. lets not find out who'd be lost without the other. like, ever. okay? okay. good. because, i'm pretty attached to the idea of you in my life. you have this uncanny ability to make even the shittiest day better. .. seriously though. this is sappy or whatever but whenever i see a new email from you, i smile.

even if you were one of those creepy basement dudes i'd still love you <3

OH MY GOD, I JUST LITERALLY LAUGHED AND CHOKED ON MY COFFEE. you are the best. i love you. totally gonna use that one.

haha, well... technically, right now i'm not wearing bottoms of any kind.. so scandalous of me..

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[mel4]

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that's... um... i...

so, have you seen those red sox recently? really, uh... kicking butt, I guess.

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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-grins- you're adorable..

i just showered, still in my towel.

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[mel4]

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i mean, you know i'm not a huge sports fan, but i've really considered getting into baseball, recently.
and uh... well, i mean, i watched national geographic the other day. really interesting. it was about rainforests... i think...

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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are you blushing KT? does my nakedness offend you -pouts-

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[mel4]

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no! it's just... i mean, you know... i'm a seventeen year old boy, bee. and you're really pretty. i don't actually have to see you to know that, so... when you say stuff like that... i mean, i feel a little awkward... i guess...

ah, i'm not good at this stuff, bee! there is a reason that ladies aren't my area of expertise. cut me some slack?

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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you can't know for sure that i'm pretty. i could be some horrible troll or whatever. BUT if it makes you feel any better i will put some clothes on.

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[mel4]

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well... let's just say i have good intuition, then. i'd bet my bottom dollar that you're a stunner.

thanks, bee. i know you probably think i'm a wimp, but i appreciate it. i still think it's a miracle a confident girl like you would give me even a second thought.
i think my now-bruised manly pride needs a root beer float to nurse it back to health. hold on, beeautiful. while i'm gone, tell me about... uh... something. any other songs you listen to? go shopping recently? want me to scram?

[BLAIR LYDIA ALDERIDGE]

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you're kind of an idiot, you know that right? KT. I don't think your any less of a guy or want you to scram at all. I'm a tease, okay? I can't help it.. but like, do you know how many other guys would have just come back with some skeezy line when i mentioned me in a towel? You're a gentleman, and when you call me beautiful (even though you don't know that for sure but lets not argue about that..).. I know you actually mean it. You're like, one in a million. So don't you dare ever let your manly pride tell you to change. or scram..

Do you know the song broken by lifehouse? it's kind of beautiful..

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